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So i haven't updated in a while... Well, here it goes.
Alot has been going on and i've been rather busy with everything in my life. I'm still dating Zack, this month will be our 5th. Ashley is still annoying the shit out of me with having to give her rides to school every fucking day and the bullshit that comes out of her mouth... I still smoke cigarettes, i completely quit smoking weed, i've fell back from the whole drinking scene (as has Zack), i haven't talked to Courtney in over a month i believe, i'm doing a bit suckish at school (but i will graduate due to the fact that i'm me and i can do lots to make up work), and i've been trying to focus more on going to college, moving out of my mothers go for saking house, and getting a job and all that fun more mature and grown up bullshit.
Senior Ball is next month. Zachary and I are very excited. :) I got a long apple red dress with a ribbed top and a pin-up bottom and a small train in the back. It was about $280 including the black sash, shoes, and assistance in dying the shoes black to match my dress. Zachary got his tux today, he got a fancy one called the Odassey and it has a pocket swatch and a red and black striped vest that matches very nicely with my dress. It was about $160 to rent it for the occasion including the shoes. Now we just need to get the flowers and the rest of my hair, makeup, nails, and underguarments items that i need and we'll be all set. Were supposed to be going in Ashley's grandpa's camper type thing, but Zack has been thinking about getting a limmo...
After Ball were going camping at Thompsons Lake for the weekend to partake in some rather interesting festivities... Were going with Ashley, Shane, Mosall, his date Squeaky, and any other people who show up to have a fun time. Whatever.
I'm tired. I'm going to bed...
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| eat it. |
[19 Feb 2009|12:00am] |
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Everytime i find someone who makes me happy beyond belief and i finally fall in love and what not, SOMEONE has to be a little bitch about it... I don't understand what the fuck her problem is at all. I hang out with her the same amount that i used to before i had a boyfriend or whatever, i just don't focus all my fucking attention on her like some crackheaded lesbian which she probably misses... So today when she came to Zak's house with her new fucking boyfriend SHANE, she made the comment that i'm "pushing all of my friends away". FUCK YOU BITCH. Not at all, i still have the same amount of "friends" that i had before i started dating Zak. They're all fake though, now that i'm not bugging the shit out of them to hang out all the time, you don't see them calling me up to chill or whatever... FUCKYOU. You make no sence. You spend just as much time with your doushebag boyfriend [who treats yu like shit] as i do with my boyfriend who is a sweetheart [except to you because he thinks your a bitch for the shit that you fucking say to me]. I've helped you through mad fucking shit in the past, and you fucking throw my happiness in my face like it's a bad fucking thing. Whatever, i'm done venting.
EAT IT.
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| Santa rocks my stockings. |
[03 Feb 2009|11:13pm] |
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So i know i haven't posted an entry in a while, but i've had alot going on in my life. Like my oh so wonderful boyfriend Zachary Johnothan Peacock. =] We've been together for about a month and a half and it's been the best everr. He's pretty much the cutest thing i've ever seen and i love him like butter on bread. He's funny, considerate, caring, honest, passionate, cute, sharing, responsible, independent, fun, adventurous, hot, reliable, trustworthy, forgiving, strong, sensitive, sexy, has a great personality, and has the most beautiful eyes i've ever seen. He loves me so much and tells me everyday. He takes care of me when i'm sick or shitfaced, he knows when there's something wrong, he makes me smile with his goofy laugh, he promises a future together and says where ever i go he will follow, and he can make me or break me in one spoken sentence. I love this boy more than anything i know. We've spent allmost everyday together for as long as we've been together and were not even close to being sick of eachother. When i spend a day away from him, the next day he tells me how much he missed me. He's so perfect for me in every way, shape, and form. He really is everything i've ever wanted and more and i'm so glad i found him, and i hope i never loose him.
Ashley and Phillips broke up. For good this time. And Ashley has been kinda getting on my nerves the past couple of weeks. First of all, shes allready been through 2 of my boyfriends best friends within the past month and i think shes been eyeing my boyfriend. She always around so Zak and i like NEVER have any alone time together... Don't get me wrong, i love this girl to death... but sometimes you just reach that level... and i think i'm there.
IN OTHER NEWS... My boyfriend and i are going on a little vacation to visit my father in Florida. =] He is very excited since he has never been out of New York State before. Were going to be spending a whole week down there and then were driving my car back. My aunt, her boyfriend, her foster child, and my cousin Alecia are giving us a ride down there so we don't have to pay a shit load for plane tickets... I'm so excited to finally get my car and have the freedom i've been expecting since i turned 18... WOOT.
Thank you santa, for bringing me the bestest Christmas Present of all... my baby, ZACHARY PEACOCK. =]
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| Misery is my BFF. |
[08 Jan 2009|07:48pm] |
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well, i have a new boyriend thing. We've been going out for almost a month now and were "in love". At least, thats what he tells me. But anyways, basically for the past 2 weeks i've been spending all of my time with him. Right now at this very moment i feel like i'm done with this shit. He gets extreemely jealous over shit. He goes through my text messages, the gets mad when i talk to other guys, and he gets exreemely pissed off when i hang out with my guy friends. its amazing.
fuck.
i love him to death, he makes me happy, and hes the cutest thing i've ever seen. but at the same time i want to punch him in the face and i would rather jump off a bridge than see him again.
thats not true, that would be painful.
ugh. i dont know what im going to do.
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| Blow Me Bitch Ass |
[16 Dec 2008|11:58pm] |
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Well now, things have certainly changed since I first moved in with my mother in this house which belongs to her “oh so wonderful” boyfriend. I now have this feeling that I am unwelcome, unwanted, and unsafe in this place I’m supposed to be able to call “home”. It’s been a few months with me living here and I’m getting this feeling that he really doesn’t want me her at all. [Which is a mutual feeling since I’ve had mixed feelings about him ever since he and my mother had started dating]. But this is getting a bit ridiculous. My cigarettes have been mysteriously disappearing… and there’s only one person who smokes here other than me. SCUMBAG. Also, someone tried to get onto my laptop today by hacking my password. [I know this because there was an oddly long code inside the password toggle on the log in screen and “Reset password” was now an option, which was never there before]. I know that it couldn’t have been my mother because she was at work all day while I was at my uncles and FUCKFACE was the only one here, alone. ALSO, I hid a bag of weed in the top drawer of my dresser in a box and when I went to go smoke it one day it was fucking GONE. I spent good money on that shit and the fucker stole it from me. As you can see, I need to get out of this house as soon as possible or else the death rate in Schenectady will definitely increase due to the fact that I’m going to fucking kill this BASTARD! He’s been nothing but a complete asshole towards me the past few months. He makes me want to tie an infant to a tree and throw snowballs at it until it dies from hypothermia. Thank god I’m turning 18 in 7 days because I can finally get the fuck out of here and get away from this fucked up way of living. Fucking cock sucker.
Haha. I found my old yearbooks and i found Zachary Peacock's pictures in it from 2nd grade up to 7th grade. HE WAS SUCH A CUTIE. :)
I'm hoping if i don't go over his house at all this week, he'll reeeeally miss me and be happy to see me at the party on Friday night. I think for christmas this year i'm going to take him to the mall so he can pick out whatever the fuck he wants. Hopefully, after a while... he'll get the motha fucking hint that i reeeally like him and that we should be together. Though getting into a relationship now just seems like a waste since i'm moving back to Jacksonville after i graduate. Maybe i should spare myself the heartache for once... Then again, love without pain is like peanut butter without it's fuck buddy jelly. :)
So i just re-dyed my hair AGAIN today. I wanted it to be "fresh" for when i see my dad again on Saturday, AND for when i hang out with my ex-boyfriends sister this weekend [because if i make a lasting impression showing the "new me" then mybe, just maybe i'll have an openeing in the Mike category], AND i want my hair to look BITCHIN for friday night when i get smashed with all my friends because then MAYBE, i'll have an even better chance of making Zak jealous when i dance with Brandon and hes grindin up on me and what not. :) Haha, i'm fucking horrible. But i love it.
So i have a 9.4 in accounting right at the moment. That kinda blows. And i know that none of my other grades are any good either this quarter. Thank god it's only the interim reports comming out this week and not report cards. This just tells me, hey christina you dumb as fuck and i think it would be a good choice for you to stop smoking weed for a while and go to school on time and actually DO your work. HAYYYY. Now that doesn't that sound like a good idea? Sure. Blow me. I'll catch up after the holidays. For now i'll party like a rockstar and then for my new years resolution i'll quit smoking weed AND do better in school and all that bullshit. ARE YOU HAPPY GOD. I will stop analy raping the sad pointless life you gave me. Even though you can't EVER return the favor with a decent, honest, steady relationship that doesn't contain a drunken asshole begging me for sex every weekend. :) Thank you too fucker.
Orangeee is the newww blackkk. Just kidding. Black and orange aren't only halloween colors you know... There also Mohonasen's school colors for the MIGHTY MOHONASEN WARRIORS!!! [who only won one game this year]. Haha bitchez. Do you want to know why, it's because my ex-boyfriends on the team. And his name is Zachary [i like to give people mono/ i never go to school/ i'm a queer cum guzzeling homo bitch] Patterson. :) Wowzerz, he has a long name.
And this is to my bestttt friiiennnddd Courtney. I love you bitch. I miss you like crazy and i can't wait until i graduate and finally come back to Fucking Jacksonville, FL. This fucking town of Rotterdam "a nice place to live" BLOWS BIG RAUNCHY ASSHOLE!!! There's nothing to fucking do anywheres, theres no good clubs, no beach, and no true friends you can rely on. Because this town is so small, everyone knows your fucking business. Like that Jason Applegate kid. He sent a nasty ass photo of himself naked, fingering his asshole to some girl in our school because he likes her. And by the end of the day, everyone in Mohonasen, Schalmont, and Guilderland schools had that motha fuckin picture on there cell phone, showong it around to everyone they fucking know. MADD FUNNY SHITT!!! :)
Anyways, 7 days until my birthday. Suck on this 3 foot dick bitchez! :)
haha, i'm going to name my son Oral when i have kids.
Fuck NEW YORK with it's cold ass winters and the lack of heat in my goddamn house. I can't feel my fingertips. YAY CHRISTMASS!!!
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[15 Dec 2008|12:38am] |
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I’ve found someone, someone who I’m not quite sure if I can have yet. But he’s perfectly flawed in every way I could ever imagine. He may make a few poor lifestyle choices, but he has an amazing personality and he’s definitely a cutie. He’s a crazy kind of funny, where he can always make me laugh when I’m sad and he always teases me for the retarded things I say. We’re not together [yet], but we fight enough to the point that people could mistake us for a couple. He usually doesn’t show much emotion towards me when his friends are around, but that’s been changing the more I come around to hang out with him. Sometimes he’s a bit shy with his feelings to the point where he keeps everything bottled in, but I’ve been working on that with him. He’s starting to feel more comfortable letting me in and telling me the things that bother him. Today, he found out that his grandfather died. We were lying in his bed together and we talked about it for a while, then he looked at me, smiled, and kissed me. He’s told me that he likes me for me and he’s told me he cares about me. He says the sweetest things at times. When I’m gone for long periods of time he telling me that he missed me. Seeing him smile always brightens up my day. He loves to cuddle and kiss when I sleep over his house. Sometimes I would spend whole weekends there and we would just lie in bed, talking about the stupidest shit ever and just laughing together. Also, I can honestly say that he’s the best sex I’ve ever had and he’s told me the same. He’s extremely good with kids. He takes care of his little brother all the time and it’s so cute when those two are together. The little kid annoys the shit out of him every day and all he can do is sit there and laugh because the things he does is so funny. His little brother is so cute, he calls me Zackie’s Christina. He has his extremely immature moments where you can’t help but to just watch and laugh and then he has his mature moments, where all he wants to do is have a serious conversation. We both like the same kind of music, foods, and we both love sleep. I know that I don’t “love” him yet, but I’m sure that I’m pretty close to being there.
I’ve known him for quite a while now [since the beginning of the summer], but I feel like I still don’t know that much about him. I know his birthday is January 23rd, his full name is Zachary John Peacock, his mother is the coolest person alive, he showers everyday [even if all he did was sleep], he went to Mohonasen until he dropped out, he takes very good care of his little brother, he loves to draw, he loves playful pain, he likes his room to be clean and he makes his bed, he smokes Newports, he likes comedies and horror movies, he’s a great kisser, and he thinks sugarless Kool-Aid is disgusting.
He’s such a cutie. I like everything about him [except for a few things].
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| Your going to get raped by a donkey. |
[04 Dec 2008|12:39am] |
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Stop smoking cigarettes you stupid bitch, your just killing yourself.
no. how about you shut the fuck up and mind you own goddam business THANKSSS.
YEAH. anyways, i have now decided that i'm going to stop smoking bud. My official last time was Tuesday and it just wasn't as fun as it usually is. Like, i guess it's a good thing that i'm quitting anyways. I'll save alot of money from not wasting it on shit. And i'll probably be able to catch up on my school work and shit. I guess it's for the best.
Also, i guess i've been not wanting to go to school all the time because i had Mono. Yup, i got it from my ex-boyfriend Zack from way back when i went out with him. I had bloodwork done last Tuesday and it said that i did have Mono in my system, which is why i had a sore throat for a few days and i was mad tired all the time and never hungry. Which would explain why i could go days without eating barely anything when i slept over Linda's house. Wurd. At least it helped me loose some weight.
I had a 2 hour today. For being late to school mad times in the past month. I was supposed to have it Monday, but i wasn't in school. Haha. So i had my 2 hour with Jessica Baker, a mad old friend who has also changed a fucking lot since the last time i've seen her. We spent the whole time making fun of people in the cafeteria and texting guys on our phones. Mad fun shit.
Holy fuck, only 2 more days left in this week and then it's Friday, and i can party it up hardcore with my friendzzz. =]
Fun shit. And i actually have money to spend this weekend, unlike last weekend. It was kind of dull last time because we had to wait around for people to come to start the party. Ugh. So i've been hanging out with Zak ,Linda, Shane, Kristina, Ashley, and Brandon lately. Fun fun fun. Shane and i aren't an item anymore [thankGOD]. He was such an asshole, and still is. But he's less annoying now that i'm not with him. I don't have to put up with him that much anymore. Yayy. =]
Zak and i kinda had something for a while. But i don't really know where we stand in that whole business. His ex-girlfriend Jasmine came to visit the other day when i was there. She's pregnant and engaged i guess. And when she came to his house to see everybody, he curled up and layed on the couch like a sad little boy who just lost his puppy. WTF? I guess because he still loves her and she was the one who fucked with his head and shit. Whatever. If he does want anything to "be" or happen with me, he's going to have to get over it eventually. [even though he probably doesn't]. but it's whatever, because i have other options for once.
FOR EXAMPLE, Shane and Zak's friend Brandon. He's pretty hot, drives, is 21, has a job, he's funny, and can hold a decent conversation. And he wants me. We've been texting eachother bach and fourth for the past couple of days and i'm going to party with him this weekend. I've been putting this option off for a while because i never know what Zak's feeling or what he wants out of whatever we have together. But i need to stop letting him make the decision. It should be mine to make if i want HIM or not, right? Whatever.
The only downfall of going out and partying Friday night is that i have to go and take my SAT's on Saturday, and i dont know what fucking time that shit is at. But i have to drive all the way out to fucking Nisceuna and sit in a big ass room with mad gross people for 3 hours to take that bitch. YAYY MEEE. Sike. Well, it's 1 in the morning and i have school tomorrow. For some reason i haven't been sleeping well for the past couple of days. It's redicilous. Like, i don't get tired until mad late, even if i don't get that many hours of sleep the night before. And then when i go to fall asleep i toss and turn ALL night long until i have to get up for school at 6:21am. It kills me. I only get like a good hour of sleep a night, if that. Fuck meee.
Okay, goodnight. I'm going to go toos and turn all night until i have to get up for schoool.
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~until next time<3
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| What happens when your boyfriend drinks too much... |
[16 Nov 2008|01:28pm] |
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So when my boyfriend drinks, wether it's liquor or beer, he always goes through stages that may scare people a bit. For instance, yesterday he had E & J, Captian Morgan, and quite a few cans of beer. [Not really sure what kind of beer it was due to the fact that i was pretty fucked up myself] But these are the stage my oh so wonderful boyfriend Shane goes through:
[there are no actual order these go in, they just happen whenever they happen]
1.The Violent Stage. This is when Shane takes everything people say as a threat or as if they're trying to pick a fight with him. This stage may lead to severe yelling and getting in peoples faces or starting a fight where many people get punched in the face.
2.The Emotional Stage. This is when Shane thinks about everything that has gone wrong in the past month or so and first acts like he doesn't give a fuck and then he starts to either complain about his problems to people or he cries.
3. The Horny Stage. This is when Shane continueously tries to get sex. At this point i know that he is really drunk because he stumbles his words frequently and he really likes to make out. Yesterday i had to tell him no because he was too drunk, which led to many other stages...
4. The "I Love You" Stage. This stage amused me the most. Yesterday was the first time i've ever saw this stage. Shane basically told me that he loves me and that he wants to go to Florida with me in September and he wants to make me his wife and get a house and everything else. It was really sweet. He didn't want to let go of me.
Eventually, all these stages led to Shane leaving and taking the rest of his beers with him. So i left because everyone was leaving the party. Shane called me up very angry later on because he herd that i was "hanging out" with Charlie, even though he only gave me a ride home. Whatever.
He really is a handful, but i'm sure i can handle it.
Because he's mine.
<3
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| Ready for Action. |
[14 Nov 2008|04:08pm] |
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YAYYY. My dad is comming to visit for thanksgiving next weekend. He going to be here for a week and he's driving my car up. =] Andd, he told me that he's leaving my car here at my uncles house and taking a plane back to Florida which means all i have to do is get my license and i can HAVE MY CAR!!!! AHH. i'm soooooooooo excited.
Also, my goooooooood friend Charlie is comming to visit all of us from college for thanksgiving too. Which means... PARTIES, PARTIES, SMOKING, AND MORE PARTIES. I'm psyched.
ALSO, my cousin Alecia and i are going to visit my cousin at college tomorrow. She's gunna take us to a genuine college party. WOOT. I'm mad excited for this weekend. AHHHHHHHHHHH.
=]
yay.
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| disreguard my homework being on here. i'm in a rush. |
[13 Nov 2008|02:59pm] |
Christina Hess Nov.2008
Public Police Analysis Project Step #1 BDF 1-2 ~Abortion~ © Pro-Choice: favoring or supporting the legal right of women and girls to have the choice of weather they want to continue a pregnancy to term or not.
© Pro-Life: favoring or supporting the idea “right-to-life” or full legal protection for human embryos and fetuses, strongly opposing abortions.
© Is abortion a right?
o Pro-choice: under the fourteenth ammendment a woman has the right to privacy and choosing to have an abortion should be a decision made between the woman and her doctor. o Pro-life: a fetus or embryo has the right to live. © When does life really begin?
o Pro-choice: life begins at birth, when the baby is extracted from the mothers womb. o Pro-life: life begins at conseption, when the sperm meets the egg. © Are abortions immoral?
o Pro-choice: it is immoral to force a woman to carry a pregnancy to term against her will. o Pro-life: abortions are immoral because it is the same as murdering an innocent child.
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| Clique this. |
[11 Nov 2008|08:10pm] |
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There are so many choices i could make right now... but i'm holding off on everything and i'm just going to sit here and think about what i really want before i make my next move. I'm seventeen years old and i'm going to be eighteen soon. I'm going to be mature about this decision. Here we go...
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So heres the deal...
I'm sick of everyone trying to tell me what they think is or isn't good for me. Get over yourself. You have no place to tell me what is right or wrong. Your not god AND frankly, the people who have been trying to tell me this shit haven't actually hung out wth me in over a month. So shut the fuck up. Your not me, and you can't make decisions for me. I don't care if you think that my boyfriend is a scumbag, or if you think that i smoke too much pot, or even if you think that i'm a stupid bitch. You may say that you care about me or what the fuck ever. But the truth is, you just hate that i found something that makes me feel important and like i can actually live. No, i'm not addicted. I'm just making a point. I think it's funny that the people who used to smoke more than i do and used to hang out WITH my boyfriend, [before he was mine] are the ones telling me that I'M making mistakes. Only because they stopped that shit. I don't care. Honestly, it's probably just one of those stupid ass phases i've been going through. So, if your one of those "Conserned" fucking people who pretend to give a fuck but actually just want something to talk about... then this is for you. I'M NOT GOING TO RUIN MY LIFE. Even though it's none of your fucking business. There you go.
I'm going to graduate high school at Mohonasen, move back down to Jacksonville, Florida, move in with my BEST friend Courtney [because she actually gives a fuck about me, unlike you stupid fucks who just like to bitch about shit.], go to a community college for 2 years and then transfer to some big important college who has a good business program for another 2 years. Then i'll get a sweet ass Marketing Excutive job with a larger than life corner office with lots of windows and i'll look down on all of you when you take your queer little families to Florida for a low-income vacation. And i'll laugh. Because you couldn't even afford to have dinner with me. Too bad you didn't stay in touch after MOCKING my "bad" decisions when you were supposed to be supporting me as my "friends". OH FUCKING WELL. I'm sure i'll do just fine without you.
The next order of business is about having a black man as president... WOW. Many people say, "What the fuck, why does it even matter, he's just going to end up getting shot in office anyways." Awesome. I've herd so many different views on political shit it's unbelievable. Like, "Oh, it's a good thing McCain didn't win, he would've died in office he's so old...". So what the hell is the difference? They both have a good risk of dieing. Frankly, i think that McCain should have won. But, my voice doesn't matter because i'm 1 month, 2 weeks, and 3 days shy of being 18 and able to vote... Cool. So you don't want McCain to win because you say Sarah Palin is Stupid... Well, i think she holds a few good points and can hold an audience well. And how the fuck do you know shes stupid? Have you seen her IQ test results or her Aptitude test? No. You only come to the conclusin that shes stupid because of what other people tell you. WAY TO HAVE YOUR OWN OPINION. Nope, instead you go around stating facts about things that other people have told you. In that case, How the fuck do you even know what other people say is true? Haven't you ever herd the phrase, "Don't believe everything other people tell you." You stupid gullible bastards.
Okay, i'm done.
:)
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[03 Nov 2008|02:56pm] |
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So apparently i happen to be bombarded with work now that i've slacked off a bit with my school work. It has collected up and now here i am staggering along to get it done last minute before grades have to be in on Friday. This is my normal routine, though i was hoping to break it this year. But it seems i've lost alot of my interest and inspiration to get things done. Instead, i've taken a greater interest in partying harder than you could ever imagine and taking in my youth. Yup, i spent my whole weekend chillin and partying with mad people at Linda's house. It was AMAZINGLY fun. And i plan to do the same thing this comming weekend. But for the time being... i have a shit load of work to make up for and not alot of time to do it in.
Here we go again...
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| Last years wishes, are this years apologies. |
[29 Oct 2008|11:12pm] |
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Oddly enough... i'm in a rather good mood today. Though there isn't anything good going on in my life at all to make my mood so considerably high, today just seemed like a day to recollect and appreciate things. Which also led me to the oh so wonderful thought of Blogging todayy. yay. So i decided that i'm going to start a project. I'm going to take a picture everyday and write a caption under it describing how i feel that day. This should be interesting since i find myself to be rather creative and full of interesting topics and ideas. Anyways, i plan on doing this for a year ending exactly a year from the day that i start... Which i plan on being my 18th birthday.
So i was unbearibly sick for the past 2 1/2 days. I finally pulled myself out of bed around 9ish this morning. Let me tell you, it's horrible pukeing your brains out for2 days straight and not eating a dam thing in fear of more vomit projecting from my mouth like a fucking plane getting ready for take off. Yes, i did just use that analogy.
So i really think guys are the root of all evil. Wurd. I guess it brings you back to that time when you had your first date and your dad sits you down and tells you guys only want one thing, and it's never a good thing... Yeah, he wasn't lieing. He was just a little bit early. Ad when he tells you that it completely washes to the back of your mind where it sits there collecting dust until the day you realize; "Hey, my dad WAS right." And at that point in time this whole boy situation has turned into a big rolling ball "i fucking want to obliterate the male race completely." yayy.Thanksss Daddy. =D
Awesome. Goodnight.
I'm tired.
blah.
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| Questions that need answers. |
[23 Oct 2008|03:49pm] |
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1. Why is it so hard for guys to commit to a relationship?
Seriously. It's getting redicilous the way girls get used by guys on a monthly basis. Why can't i just meet a guy whos willing to tell me up front what he wants out of a relationship and can he honest and repectful of me.
Come on assholes. It's not that hard.
2. Why can't we recieve a message from the future to let us know that were going to be okay?
How do i know if i'm on the right path or not. I don't want to turn out like my mother living in a dumpy house in Schehectady just barely making ends meat and dating a typical scumbag. I would serously contemplate suicide.
3. Why do i always seem to be so clueless when it comes to guys?
WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME?? I want you to be honest. Stop being stuck up fuckers and get over the fact that you have a penis. I want you to tell me your true feelings. If you want a relationship, then thats awesome. Lets go for it. But i would prefe not to be used for sex. THANNNKSSS.
4. What the fuck is going on with government these days?
I meannn WOW. Who decided to throw everyone together and say, "HEY, lets tax the fuck out of the citizens and give them shitty health care (if any at all) and lets make all people who have to do with making laws REEEALLLYYY rich and take bribes to continue making the U.S a SHITTY place to live. COOLNESSS!
5. Where IS Waldo??
It's ligit. I'm going to buy a fish and name it Waldo so when people ask me this question... I"LL KNOW WHERE IT'S AT!! =]
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| wowzerz. |
[19 Oct 2008|07:41pm] |
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I've spent my whole weekend sitting my lazy ass at home not doing a god dam thing but playing Mafia Wars on Myspace. I've aquired 28 .22 pistols, 4 brass knuckles, 2 buttergly knives, 2 bats, crowbars, grenades, and more guns than your mother could ever imagine. I've bought a motorcycle, an armored sudan, mike's bar, and a rented house on vacant lots. I've reached level 11 in the past few hours and have accomplished over 40 jobs. It's amazing right? Sike. But yeah. Other than that i've been rolling L's, sleeping, and other daily activites. I was supposed to hang out with people this weekend, but i chose not to. I might call Nate soon to hang out. Ashley recently told him that i "want" him, so he's been trying to hang out with me for the past couple of days. I had 2 detentions in the past week and have been late to school almost every day. Whatever. School sucks anyways. I wish it would end. Anyways, writing this is only a minor time consumer while my energy and stamina points reload on Mafia Wars so i can continue playing and excel to the next level. WOOT. Peace. =]
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| Homo say wut. |
[09 Oct 2008|11:01pm] |
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This is redicilous. Broken up with again. I feel like it was my fault somehow, as i replay it in my head over and over again. Well, i knew it wasn't gunna last forever, but damn. I didn't even see this shit comming. We were purfectly fine and then out of the blue he texted me and was like... "I think we took things TOO fast." And the next thing i knew... BAMSHAPOWW. We were over like my minutes on the cell phone bill last week. And that shit was baaaaddd. But i miss him. He was really good for me. He kept me out of trouble, he could always make me laugh... Dammit. I miss you Zack.
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| Ballz of Furey!! |
[28 Sep 2008|01:25pm] |
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I've been extreemely outstandingly busy for the past couple of months. I joined the colorguard thing my school has and thats been taking up a shit load of my time. Fucking mondays and wednesdays 6 to 8:30 and every saterday we have a show that lasts all god damn day long. But yeah, i started school. Senior year. WOOT. I'm taking a bitchload of classes that don't matter at all to my existance... but, what are you gunna do right? Wurd. Lets see, there's Intermediate Algebra, Accounting, Economics, Participation in Government, Medical Technology... yeah. So i got a gym membership to planet fittness... yup. Tannings my new thing now. =] For realz. So i have a new boy toy too. His name is Zack. He's a football player and he's packin some good equiptment, if you know what i'm sayin. =] He's pretty cute. He drives, listens to country, and smokes cigars. Haha. Hes against smoking weed and drinking though. So i guess he's good for me. Lol. Good shit.
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| Your a dick in the mouth of Society. |
[06 Aug 2008|12:08am] |
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Yes. This past week has been good. I've been hanging out with my friends and chillin. Next week im going to LBI with the fam. Not my first choice of spending my time, but what the hell. I love the beach and it should be cool. As long as Rochelle does'nt get in my face. Yeah, no current boy trouble. Nate told me he's not mad at me and he wants to be friends. Yea, good luck with that one. Big Day Out was the shit. I smoked with Denice, Jessica and Ashley. It was mad chill. I saw Nate there and it was just a bit akward. I got to meet LJ> The lead singer of Sevendust on there bus. It was mad sweet. He signed my shirt and told us we should party with them some time. Coolness. :)
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